Wednesday, January 20, 2010

My Heart's Mind

When tragedy occurs I go through the same process.

I choose to ignore it.  If I don't acknowledge it, it doesn't exist.  If it doesn't exist, I don't have to compare it to my own tragedy and loss.  I don't have to spend hours reliving the day we lost our girls.

I try to control it.  I convince myself if I could just get on a plane and hold those orphaned children it will all be okay.  If I'm in the midst of it and I can decide who gets the supplies they need it will be okay.

I obsess over it.  It gets into my head.  I have a hard time appreciating the joy that's right in front of me because of all the devastation.

I give.  Everything counts and technology makes it so easy to give in any way you can.

I pray.  I pray for those who have lost loved ones.  I pray for those left to put it all back together.  I pray for the people who have so easily given of their time to help.  I pray the next time a tragedy happens, I'll start praying and I'll remember how powerful God's grace can be.


Megan@SortaCrunchy said...

I can't even imagine how seeing the suffering and loss in Haiti would trigger such powerful emotions for you. Thank you for sharing with such authenticity about this. Praying comfort and grace for you.

Allie said...

Thinking good thoughts for you. I'm sure it's so hard to not think about other people experiencing loss when you know how deeply it hurts.

Andrea @ The Train to Crazy said...

Thanks for opening my eyes to how others may view this tragedy. I can't imagine how painful events like Haiti and all the others around the world must feel when it brings up such deep emotion. Praying for you.

Hillary @ The Other Mama said...

Amen and so true. It's just overwhelming to imagine.